So I'm done with facebook... deleted pretty much everyone on there so not much of a point of it anyway anymore. I tried to fight it and I tried to explain it but it's not going to happen. I may as well get over it its inevitable ..... Jae's screaming her head off right now is insisting sleep is not the way for her to go, luckily I hear the energy leaving her screams.... ugh 10 month old so awesome and exhausting.. I have so much respect for single parents now it's insane.. these last months have been hell without David, I want to be with him so bad, but everyday it feels more and more like it wasn't meant to be. :( I guess it helps sometimes to write these things out, it's been so long I haven't even thought of it at the time.. We argue nonstop anymore sometimes I wonder if it's just the deployment then realize it's the same problems we were having before he left.. Never thought I would be "that jealous girl" well no I am with him talking to the "wrong females" but hey who am I to say only certain people understand what I am referring to. A lot of girls talk to guys because they like them... when a girl likes a man regardless if married (cause that goes out the window and its just her and him) they start to flirt.... which then leads to pictures.. which leads to videos..... which leads to inevitably cheating.... well the whole thing is actually cheating but hey and me telling him this means to him > I don't trust him.... IDK I think anyone can cheat in the right situation... that's why you avoid putting yourself in those situations right? But i'm wrong I just deleted pretty much all the people all my fb to prove it didn't even matter, but fuck it shut it down.....
Idk I give up...I don't want to fight... I don't want to be involved..... I just want our daughter to have a stable life with her father and the man I love... But I feel that won't be possible at this time maybe staleys right he just needs to lose something to realize what he will do to get it back... would he try though? I really don't know... Can I do it on the otherhand?
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